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kau masih ingin sendiri
tak diikat apa-apa tali
tapi kau tak mampu mengenggam sunyi
yang bikin insomnia sampai terbit mentari

kerana sunyi yang mencengkam
buat kau beliak dan jaga
sepanjang malam

ah, perasaan yang bercampur gaul
serupa sos digoreng dengan nasi
warnanya sebati tak terpisah lagi

tak pernah dibukapun hati
pada mana-mana lelaki
lantaran tak pasti
apa benar-benar suka
atau sekadar ingin memiliki

apa sudah masanya kini
melepaskan perisai besi
dan berhenti hidup sendiri

12 a.m.

In the somber lonely midnight
I tried to fight
The thoughts that tears me a apart
Distracting myself with interactions
To fill the void in my heart

Ever so temporary
The high and the memory
So I curled up feeling lonely
Listening intently
to the soft melody
of a lullaby meant for the baby

Heavy Heart

When you're walking just carrying around your heavy heart.
Because of the things that no one knows about.
And you don't wanna be judged
So you keep your mouth closed shut
For when you start talking
You'll start crying
And the vulnerability that you're feeling
is just too much to bear

Life still has to move on
Though you just wanna wallow until it's all gone

Simpan

Nak terjerit
bagai dicekik
Lidah aku gigit
tak benarkan diri memekik

Buah minda
Aku biar
Senyap
Lenyap

Terlatih aku untuk diam
Pendapat pendam sampai padam
Kala suara dibunyikan
Laju cemuhan datang serupa hujan
Anak sialan
Bodoh sombong penuh alasan
Bertubi-tubi tomahan
Walhal, kalau salah perlu teguran
Moleklah tarik aku tepi jalan
Bisik perlahan perbetul yang tak berkenan

Tapi tidak
Kau lebih suka menembak
Hunus pisau sebanyak-banyak
Biar jiwa dia rabak
Biar luka hati
Biar dia menangis berhari-hari
Biar dia keluar bilik pun tak sudi
Biar mati

Nak terjerit
bagai dicekik
Lidah aku gigit
tak benarkan diri memekik

Buah minda
Aku biar
Senyap
Lenyap

Gravity

It's 3 a.m and my thoughts run to you
Eyes blue
Staring into
the little hole
of my invisible soul
and this adoration is taking it's toll
on my self control

It's as if no one
could do what you've done
to me
to my memory
to my sanity
you my love
are gravity

because I kept on falling
profusely

Double

senyum nakal
menggoyah dinding tebal
hatiku yang seharusnya kebal

karisma si dia
dalam tutur bicara
dan malu yang nyata
bila cuma berdua
memutik rasa kagum dan suka
pada sang adik junior
kacak bergaya

I Adore You

I still miss you
When the clock strikes two
I still miss you
Even though we don't talk like we used to
I still miss you
I honestly still do

Months past
Memories lasts
And even after almost a year
I still remember
My dear
How you made me feel
As if time stood still
Adoring you, I always will